The Morning After
I really need to get my shit together when it comes to drunk texting. I had the club going up... on a Tuesday.
I don't even know why I have my phone in my hand when I'm in that condition. I sent a message to someone last night - THE LAST PERSON I SHOULD BE TEXTING - and I'm totally over myself for it.
A former friend of mine summed me up perfectly as it relates to my 'friendships' with these folks who only have an agenda when it comes to me... He said "you must have this inescapable desire to be hurt and dogged out by these types of guys." And he's absolutely right! But there's a part of me that likes to see the potential in people. I need to release that shit because it continues to set me up for failure.
Seriously, if someone adds zero value to your life, why are they allowed to reap the rewards of someone who actually adds value? I was cooking for this nigga and he couldn't even get off of his ungrateful ass to take his plate to the sink. This nigga really had it made and I was a total fool the entire time BUT I knew I was being foolish so does it really count? The answer is yes. His finesse game was good but mine was better. I got to see parts of him that I'm sure others never saw. He did things in front of me that I'll never forget - just like he won't. But hey, that will be our little secret.
And when they show you who they really are, why do we keep going back time and time and time again? This dude has NEVER done anything nice for me outside of what he owed me which was dinner. In 4 years, he only bought me dinner twice. But this nigga ate at my crib so many times, he could have had a rewards card.
The bottom line is this... I wanted him out of my life because he literally brought NOTHING to the table. He was boring and he literally drained me of all energy. I wrote the storyline that fueled the fire that made him walk away - catch that finesse game again. And now that he's gone, I need to allow it to be.
Plus, sometimes the only way to find the person who will rock your world is to get rid of the seat filler. Out with the old...
I don't even know why I have my phone in my hand when I'm in that condition. I sent a message to someone last night - THE LAST PERSON I SHOULD BE TEXTING - and I'm totally over myself for it.
A former friend of mine summed me up perfectly as it relates to my 'friendships' with these folks who only have an agenda when it comes to me... He said "you must have this inescapable desire to be hurt and dogged out by these types of guys." And he's absolutely right! But there's a part of me that likes to see the potential in people. I need to release that shit because it continues to set me up for failure.
Seriously, if someone adds zero value to your life, why are they allowed to reap the rewards of someone who actually adds value? I was cooking for this nigga and he couldn't even get off of his ungrateful ass to take his plate to the sink. This nigga really had it made and I was a total fool the entire time BUT I knew I was being foolish so does it really count? The answer is yes. His finesse game was good but mine was better. I got to see parts of him that I'm sure others never saw. He did things in front of me that I'll never forget - just like he won't. But hey, that will be our little secret.
And when they show you who they really are, why do we keep going back time and time and time again? This dude has NEVER done anything nice for me outside of what he owed me which was dinner. In 4 years, he only bought me dinner twice. But this nigga ate at my crib so many times, he could have had a rewards card.
The bottom line is this... I wanted him out of my life because he literally brought NOTHING to the table. He was boring and he literally drained me of all energy. I wrote the storyline that fueled the fire that made him walk away - catch that finesse game again. And now that he's gone, I need to allow it to be.
Plus, sometimes the only way to find the person who will rock your world is to get rid of the seat filler. Out with the old...
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